I live for

Unfulfilled dreams

I live for

Unreached territories

I live for the defeated

The lonely, the scarred, the battered

 

I live to show 

That out of the dust

Something majestic rises

 

I keep it in the contours of my mind

Convince myself that if I don’t say it

Maybe it’s not true

 

I keep quiet

…quiet very quiet

 

No air must get the whip of it…

you wake with it

trodding along

through out the day

like a life-long friend

never leaving your side

takes you to work

rides with you

knocks off with you

’till you forget its there

then you wonder

where, when,how

…things that afflict

it was like

fresh spring water

in the streams of my being

 

it washed over me

made the lilies on the side

of my rivulets sprout like morning sun

 

it refreshed me

like ice cold water

at noon’s summer’s day

 

I felt whole

I felt you

I felt love

 

You told me I was not good enough

I almost believed you

You told me to give up

I nodded and agreed

 

You told me to shrivel and die

Lie in the corner and disappear

Hypnotised me to despondency

Your word was gospel to me

I bowed to your beckoning

 

I believed you 

Thought you were God

Embraced you

Loved you

Gave you all of me

…You lied

 

i said i wanted

the moon and the stars

i said i want

the galaxies

all but no less

i opened myself up

for greatness so big

did not care about

the prize, the price

did not see

that to gain

you have to lose

i wanted

i am getting

We were going to

Dazzle them

Together, show ‘em

Together..

 

Together you did not want

Together too high a call

Together too pricey

…I guess

 

Somewhere yonder

Is a together

Worth the price

The pain, the torment

The agony

 

We had our forever

It made my hands glow

Set my heart alight

 

It blinded you

Threatened to scar your hands

If you could only believe..

In together and forever

men made laws

obeyed by their makers

perfected by the rest

try this, try that

this works, that works

try it all

then throw hands in the air

well then?

man made rules

watched by gatekeepers

perfect over years

work for those

who make them

A friend will not try to change you

Will not assume

Will wait

And know

Sometimes its so clear, you can see right through it.

Sometimes its so foggy hope seems like an illusion

And sometimes, just sometimes

You wake up hoping